Well, I did it!!
My presentation was yesterday afternoon.
My topic was to be on Customer Care in the Surgery!!!!
I was well prepped and had created my power point slides and was just waiting for the moment to come.
We picked names out of a hat to decide when we would each have our turn.
I had been told the two worst slots were being first and last.
Guess which one I was -
Yikes - but that was ok it would mean I would get it out of the way quick.
But the nearer the time got the faster my heart was beating and it was all I could think about.
I got up set up my slides and had my notes handy - which I didn't really want to read from, I wanted to speak to my audience but was worried I would lose my place.
But the minute I turned to speak I started to shake, rattle and roll.
I swear I even think my hair was shaking, lol. Not a good look (or feeling) I can tell you!!!
However I didn't use my notes and I completely forgot to use the slides and my voice shook with every syllable I spoke.
But my five minutes finally came to an end and my torture was thankfully over.
I felt it went dreadfully but my colleagues - lovely supportive girls that they are - said lovely things about it and said it didn't go as badly as I thought it had!!!
My tutor said that even though I was very nervous it was well prepped and delivered well. I don't think she could possibly be hearing the same speach I was giving, lol.
Every time I think about it I cringe.
I had a picture in my head of how well I would do and the reality didn't match my internal vision. Oh well!! It's over and I'm not planning on doing that again for a loooooong time.
I know I'm a wimp! :)))
I do wonder though, what brings on these types of reactions. I knew I was very nervous but never thought I would react like that.
I'm obviously not cut our to be a public speaker, but them I sort of knew that already :))
Anyway on to nicer and more calming thoughts and a couple of pretty pictures.
We had a really rainy day the other day and when I was sitting in our dining room I saw these lovely raindrops sparkling on the trees. So pretty!!!
So I grabbed my camera and took some pictures.
There, I feel better already. :)))