Five Minutes

Well, I did it!!

My presentation was yesterday afternoon.

My topic was to be on Customer Care in the Surgery!!!!

I was well prepped and had created my power point slides and was just waiting for the moment to come. 

We picked names out of a hat to decide when we would each have our turn. 

I had been told the two worst slots were being first and last.  

Guess which one I was -

FIRST

Yikes - but that was ok it would mean I would get it out of the way quick.

But the nearer the time got the faster my heart was beating and it was all I could think about.

I got up set up my slides and had my notes handy - which I didn't really want to read from, I wanted to speak to my audience but was worried I would lose my place. 

But the minute I turned to speak I started to shake, rattle and roll.  

I swear I even think my hair was shaking, lol.  Not  a good look (or feeling)  I can tell you!!!

 However I didn't use my notes and I completely forgot to use the slides and my voice shook with every syllable I spoke. 

But my five minutes finally came to an end and my torture was thankfully over. 

I felt it went dreadfully but my colleagues - lovely supportive girls that they are - said lovely things about it and said it didn't go as badly as I thought it had!!!    

My tutor said that even though I was very nervous it was well prepped and delivered well. I don't think she could possibly be hearing the same speach I was giving, lol.

Every time I think about it I cringe.

I had a picture in my head of how well I would do and the reality didn't match my internal vision.  Oh well!!  It's over and I'm not planning on doing that again for a loooooong time.

I know I'm a wimp!  :))) 

I do wonder though, what brings on these types of reactions. I knew I was very nervous but never thought I would react like that. 

I'm obviously not cut our to be a public speaker, but them I sort of knew that already :))

Anyway on to nicer and more calming thoughts and a couple of pretty pictures.

We had a really rainy day the other day and when I was sitting in our dining room I saw these lovely raindrops sparkling on the trees.  So pretty!!!

So I grabbed my camera and took some pictures.

There,  I feel better already. :)))